wow, it's been a while since i have been on this thing!!!

so as crazyyyy as it sounds, me & bryan are back together... the past 3 years have been a complete roller coaster ride with our relationship, & i know most people think i am crazyyy to of stood by it all this time & keep going back & giving more chances, but i guess love will do that to ya. but we have been doing fairly well this time & hopefully it will work out!

i cant believe i am a junior in college, time flysss! i still havent really decided what i want to do with my life, or where i want to go with it, but i guess i will eventually figure it out! ha i have a lot of different things on my mind though...

i dont really know what else to say, just giving a little update on my life. ha  maybe ill update again soon!

so long xanga.

so im sitting here in VCUs library & i suddenly started to miss barton, i never thought i would actually say that... i just miss the small community although i never felt really a part of it with anyone there. i miss soccer more and more with every day that passes. i came here for the wrong reasons & gave up so much.

me & bryan are completely over & done with .. & although i know it is for the best, it sucks to know i completely did a 180 with my life & he was a big reason for me doing so. i know i dont need someone that isnt going to school & doing good things with their life, but when you date someone for nearly 2 years, you grow to love that person unlike anyone else. i had never been in a real relationship like me & his.. & now im still dealing with the pain. i cant go anywhere, listen to anything, or think about anything without something reminding me of him. i never thought it would be this way, but it def is. i loved him with everything i had in me & now im seeing myself in a different view because he isnt part of my life anymore. he told me about a month ago.. "you will always be in my life, you know that." but really, im not. im completely erased from his memory as i am trying to do with him. i wish i would of make wiser choices with everything in the past 2 years. im sure he thinks the same.

well im supposed to be studying but i had to vent, but thats all. this is always where i run when i need to get things off my chest.

so i havent really updated in a longggg time.

i offically have an apartment downtown, finallllly! i move in aug 1st & i am so stoked!!!! me & molly have been buying things left & right for it. ha

im kind of ready for school to start, but im also very nervous!

im in an extremely complicated situation right now & i dont know what to do about it.... sdkfjhsdkjfh!! but i dont want to talk about it yet.

but thats all for now, i need to clean my room. ha

 yall.